This = Love
In less twelve hours’ time time I will officially be a resident of Tampa, Florida. It’s such an unreal notion that I’m not sure if I believe that it’s happening myself. This move has been the single most important decision that I’ve made in my entire life. I couldn’t be happier, but I’m also scared as hell. Life will never be the same after this. I’m giving up college, something that I was dead set on my entire life, to make this move. I’m giving up my family, not literally but in the sense that I won’t be seeing them every single day, to make this move. I’m giving up my home sweet Nola, a place like no other that I could never imagine leaving, to make this move. I’m giving up comfort, familiarity, and a life without much struggle to make this move. Those are all really hard things to give up, but I always say that nothing worth having is ever easy.
“It’s in the eyes of children as they leave for the very first time.”
However, I could look at all of this another way. Instead of looking at it as giving things up, I could look at it as gaining the best of things. After all, I did make this monumentally difficult decision all in the name of pursuing my dream. My dream. Lots of people have dreams. I’d venture to say that almost everybody has a dream, an aspiration, something they would refer to as their life’s ambition. Now I realize that my dream of becoming a professional wrestling isn’t the most usual of dreams, but what can I say? It’s my dream - the thing that preoccupies my mind when I’m trying to sleep at night and I would do almost anything to achieve.
“If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be,
with anyone that you wanted to be with,
do anything that you wanted to do,
what would it be and who would it be with you?”
I expect the experiences I have down in Florida to be like no other. I’m so ready to meet new people, learn my way around an entirely new city that I’ve never been to before, start my new job, decorate my apartment, stay up late chatting about life with the Meredith to my Christina (aka my roomie), take acting classes, and most importantly start wrestling training at FCW in January. I get this surreal feeling when I think about it. I’ve known for ages that wrestling is my passion; I’ve known since my senior year of high school beyond a shadow of a doubt that wrestling is what I wanted to do with my life; and I’ve know that wrestling is what I was going to do with my life since I decided to completely turn my life around and get healthy on December 21, 2010. To quote Alberto del Rio, “It is my destiny.” I truly believe that. I have to believe that. I feel like if you don’t have a fire inside of you that makes you believe that you’re destined to follow your dream and achieve your goals, then you won’t.
So as I sit here in my completely empty bedroom, the one that I’ve occupied for the last eight years of my life, I feel sad and sentimental. However, I will not allow those feelings that typically scare people to overshadow what I am doing all of this for. After all…
This is why we do it, this is worth the pain;
This is why we bow down and get back up again;
This is where the heart lies; this is from above;
Love is this; this is love.
…see you guys in Florida!
“This = Love” by The Script
